There are so many loose ends in my life. So many projects left incomplete and goals that have not been met. There are people I need to call and favors I need to return. The loose ends that bother me the most are the relationships that have not been defined. What do my old boyfriends think of me? Where do I stand with friends who have simply lost contact? What about that person who never apologized?
Sometimes I want to fight for peace in my relationships. I fight for it in my dreams. I wonder if their good opinion still stands. I wonder if there is anything I can do to change it. Most of all I wonder if it even bothers them, like it bother me.
Part of me wishes I was brave enough to fight for peace.
Part of me thinks I should let sleeping dogs lie.
I know I can't live in the past.
This war (like many) has no clear end in sight.
If there is nothing left there to save, is it worth the battle?
Maybe Peace is found in the words left unspoken.