I've been saturated in purtanical work ethic,
"Idle hands are the devils work shop"
Some of it is my own personality.
I took up knitting so that even when I watch football, I'm productive.
I can't sit still.
I'm terrible at cuddling.
It seems like a waste of time, when we could be doing better things...
Recently, my heart has been crying...
It's not as easy as it sounds.
I've had to teach myself.
There is an undefined "gray area" between overexertion and laziness.
This gray area is new territory for me.
I try to not feel too guilty about it.
I've stopped myself from working through lunches,
Forced myself to take a nap,
Made time for walks.
I find that somehow everything still gets done.
I still struggle with the guilt of it all.
But I am listening to my heart.
Learning a new pace.
And trying to be better at cuddling.
"He says, "Be still and know that I am God,
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth."